So… according to WordPress.com, I should introduce myself.. Okay… So, on these blogposts, I will just go by the nickname “B”. Cheesy? I know. Very original? Yep. Took me a sec to come up with that? You got it. Actually no, you didn’t. If you know me pretty well, you’ll know that I am pretty (very) indecisive, and I like to know what my options all are before deciding on one thing (more like keep switching my mind between my options before deciding on one thing, but ok). Anyways, before I start blabbering on about how indecisive I am, like I’m already doing, lemme introduce myself.
So hi everyone! It’s me, B. I’m a 19 year old university student, attending a program I am not even entirely sure about (but everyone tells me no one really ever is sure about their program), so why not just go with it, right?
So, I’m currently living in British Columbia, Canada, but I am originally from the Philippines! Both such beautiful places with so much natural wonders waiting to be discovered! Both places filled with so many beautiful, kind, caring, hospitable people who I’m blessed to have experienced and lived the culture of. Over the years, I have travelled literally back and forth to both countries almost every year, and I will forever feel grateful to be able to do that and to have had the opportunity to do it with specialll thanks to my parents. For all my travels, my family, especially my parents, and my sister I guess, have been so supportive of me stepping out of my comfort zone, one step at a time, and slowly exploring the world on my own, all independently (for most parts).
Most of this started about 2 years ago.. 2 years ago: it was May 2018 when I graduated from high school.. the moment I graduated, I knew I had to get out of the building I stayed so comfortably in for about five years.. Yes, I know, we all say how high school was so gross and that we all like our life better out of there now, but do we really? the moment I graduated, I knew it was a different world out there, and that it is most likely 10x harder, if not, incomparable, than high school.. i have no idea how everyone was so excited, while i was there, right alongside them, with a joyful smile on my face saying “finally, we’re outta here”, but deep inside, I was so scared. I was so scared because I knew graduating from high school was when most responsibilities would start to pile in.. and it did.. non-stop.. I was so scared because it was when these big, scary-looking life-decisions had to be made.. I was so scared because it was when the world started to throw obstacles my way… obstacles that brought me down to my knees. It was these two years out of high school I really struggled with in my life.. yeah, worse than having to move away from my family in the Philippines to Canada if that can put it into perspective. But the painful fact is, yes, I’m still living in that two years.
I am so indecisive that I have no idea where my future will take me, what paths to take, what major to go in, what I wanna do in life, and am i really doing what i wanna do in life, what’s my plans are for this year? what my plans are for next year? sooo much questions, and not a single one of those i have the answer to. But having to live with myself and my indecisiveness, I’ve figured out the answer to all those. I’ve figured out that…. that it’s okay I don’t have the answers for all of those life-changing, heavy questions, and that I shouldn’t put too much pressure on myself to get it all figured out. Because, as my best friend like to say, only time will tell.
Read my next blog, if you keep reading, you will see how much social media accounts I have for me to post about my travels.
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